You Dont Know What You Got Til It's Gone...Or At Least Until Someone Crushes It...

I never really understood the meaning of " You don't know what you got til its gone." I have heard it a million times in a song or people quoting it. It just never really hit me until yesterday....

I had my annual check up yesterday. My Dr., whom I absolutely adored, moved to a different hospital that my insurance does not cover. So I was stuck with a male doctor! I am not entirely comfortable with a man dr. , so I asked for a female. The only female availabe was a nurse practioner, so I figured... sure why not!

Let me tell you...it was the worst experience I have ever had! Its already nerve wrecking to go to the drs...and this NP made it worse. When she meets me, she doesn't even greet me and says " So when are you having children." She does all the regular check up things on me and proceeds to talk about children and how I am getting close to 30, so I may have some complications getting pregnant! Grrr! ( As If I didnt know that already)Then she asked me about my history and says " O yeah you will definetly have problems getting pregnant."

So I left my dr's appointment in despair, sad, angry, lonley, every possible worse feeling you could feel. I knew that I could possibly have a difficult pregnancy because I am getting older, but to actually hear someone say it to me...was DEVASTATING. And of course, I thought about this all day yesterday . I couldn't concentrate at work...I was a basketcase.

Thankfully I have some really good friends out there who calmed me down and I was able to talk to them about this. THANK YOU TO KRISTI, HANH NGHI, VU , JACLYN , AND LINDA for hearing me out and reasoning with me. I think its because of them, I made it through yesterday.

I guess in a way this experience is a blessing in disguise. The husband and I are now preparing and talked about a back up plan in case I can't get pregnant. This truly eases me and I am truly thankful to have a husband that will always be there to support me.

As for the pregnancy thing ..."if it happens, it happens." Despite what that stupid NP said...we are going to try and try our hardest! :) I will not let this experience get me down...

Yahoo....I added WAK to my Friends list

My friends list is slowly increasing! I just added one of my besties... WAK! Wak, if you are reading this...just feel special that I posted something about you!

Also, I will try to blog more to keep you entertained!

Love ya! :)