Healing...

I have seen two of my close friends buried in my lifetime so far, Stephanie and Brandi. One was difficult enough and with the recent passing of Brandi,my heart broke again.

When Stephanie passed, I was extremely devasted. A week before she passed, she had called me and said "When I get out of the hospital, we are going clubbing." Those are the last words that she spoke to me and I will never forget it. I was angry at God for taking her. I was angry that He would inflict so much pain on her family and friends. I had at one point in my life lost faith in Him and was so cynical about life..

Senior year in highschool was rough without her, but I had Kristen and Amy. I dont know if they realize it, but they helped me a lot through highschool and there is nothing I can do to repay them. Even now, we all still keep in contact with each other and I know we will be lifelong friends.

When Brandi passed, I didnt think I could feel as much pain as I did when Stephanie passed, but I did. I have known Brandi since jr. high and I instantly got along with her. I loved her sense of humor, her personality, and although she was little, she was a ball of fire! I would never mess with Brandi! After highschool, the last time I saw her was her wedding...and as we both lived our lives, we lost contact. Then last year I ran into her and although we talked briefly, I loved seeing her and it made my day. Then about four or five months ago, she found me on facebook. We started chit chatting here and there and like Brandi...she was happy that Sandy and I were FINALLY married and was going to have a little talk with him if we weren't ! :) The last thing she told me before she passed was " those glasses cover your cute face, I think you should go for a cat eye shape (referring to glasses that I was going to purchase.)

With Brandi's passing, I wasnt angry at God. I actually thanked Him for allowing me to be such good friends with such an amazing person. I thanked Him for having her in my life and that she has taught me so many things that I take for granted.Yes, I was extremely devasted and shocked in hearing her passing and I havent been myself this past week...but after hearing all the beautiful stories about her and to hear her sing...I knew she was in a better place. I knew that He had better plans for her and that He will take care of her.

God also brought our friends back together. Lona, Penny, Natalie, Cynthia, Holly, Desiree,Rachel, Jaclyn. Although it is sad that it took something like this for us to get together again...it was about time. I loved that we were all there for each other and I felt like we had all just seen each other yesterday ( although it has been almost 10 years since I had seen all of them, except for Jaclyn)I appreciate and love these ladies more than I thought I could....They will always be in my heart and like Kristen and Amy...they are helping me heal...

Its amazing what friendships can do to a person and you dont realize it. I know I dont say this or express this enough, but I love all of my friends, whether we still keep in contact or not. Thank you for being there for me, thank you for always lending an ear so I can vent, and thank you for helping me heal.....


To Stephanie and Brandi: You two will live forever in our hearts. Thank you for helping me a grow and be the person I am today.

Brandi Romero...

Brandi,

I dont know where to start. Has this really happened? We just talked a couple of months ago and I cant believe you are gone...

I have always felt like an outsider and you always made me feel welcomed. We had so many good times in highschool and you have always been there me. you had such an infectious personality...

I am at a lost for words..I dont know what to say . I just wish HE didnt have to take you so soon....

Prayers to you, Christian, and the girls....

School

Just signed up for summer classes. It was really depressing. I thought summer classes were suppose to be shorter. I have only signed up for two classes, but will be going to class from Monday-Thursday from 5:30-7:50. Really???? My summer is not going to be a summer anymore...I just need to enjoy my one and only vacation to my homeland( Vietnam) next month...

What keeps me going is the fact that I will be done this Fall and on the path to a well paying, challenging career...who knows...I may end up going to law school! (ha...yeah right...)

School, you are the bane of my existance!!!!

House

We bought a house last year in April. Yes we have been living in our house for one whole year! Pretty great accomplishment!

But owning a house is so much more than the mortgage. When we first moved in, we were so "gung-ho" with the decor, getting furniture, planting,etc. But as time went by and we got busy, it has not been such a big priority. Now that spring is almost here we are thinking of so many home improvements. The following is just a few things on our list:

-crown molding
-front room furniture
-garden
-green lawn ( yes our lawn is yellow)
-flowers/bushes
-furnish office
-curtains around the house

So many projects and so many things to do! Too bad money doesn't grow on trees!

Homework?

Well I am suppose to be working on my homework right now...but then I decided to work on my blog...oooops....

I am so easily distracted...

Hope everyone out there likes it! Tell me what you think! :)

Lack of Sleep

Well I havent felt this tired since my early twenties at the U, but it was well worth every moment of it! This weekend was so fun... filled with family, friends, and so much love in the air. Congrats to my Bestie Hanh Nghi and Frank on their fabulous wedding!

Pictures coming soon...

Depressing News...

I read a stat somewhere that when you turn 30, 90% of your eggs are gone. When you turn 42, they are completely gone...

I will be 29 this year...


Stats can be wrong, right?

School

I am sooo sick of school.......i am sick of the same mundane thing every week....I will be surprised if I pass my classes this semester...so unmotivated...

I NEED A BOOST....

That is all...